Lost princess Avengers/Loki vs. reader Chapter 4

New day, new case and new offer

After the night interview with Steve I need cut free from my emotions and more importantly the pain. Part of me feels better after my talk with Steve but really it hasn’t even made a dent to the huge pile of feels I have. I get out the keys to my Audi R8.
“Good morning agent Black.” An agent greets me as I enter the building.
“Good morning.” I reply with my fake smile number 5, there are a surprisngly large amount of fake smiles you can get. I don’t feel like smiling, far from it, I feel like I should be having a breakdown any minute, but I don’t. These days will be very hard for me. Inside me the hurricane has left only a wasteland, the aftermath is but rubble. I stop before a statue of SHIELD’s logo. I look at it. For most, SHIELD is a workplace, for others it is a home, a safe haven from danger. For me it is a way to find Loki.
“If you will look for him too much, eagles maybe fly away.” Phil was stood near me. I had been so deep in thought I hadn’t noticed the agent approach me.
“Hallo.” I smile. “I don´t think-” I stop myself before I can reveal anything. “How long have you been watching me?”
“I haven´t been watching you. I only just arrived now. _______?” I turn my head to look at him
“Hm?”
“I read Barton’s report.”
“And?” I ask.
“I was surprised. Your work is incredible, you’ve done very well for yourself.”
“Thank you.“ Coulson and I  slowly walk upstairs. He hands me a file which I quickly skim through.
“Bratislava. What’s abnormal in Bratislava?“ I ask him surprised, I’ve only been here a few months but I’m already quite well educated in most things about Midgard. He stops walking and gazes at me.
“New case. Everything important is in the file.“ I look up only to find him walking away. I open the file the file again to look at it properly. My new case is with Black Widow and Hawkeye. Ok. Next case. I open the door to gym and walk into room. Everyone looks at me. I hold my head high and continue on into the changing rooms. As I changed my clothes I traced my hand over the line of a scar. It was old battle wound form Vanaheim. Again I trace over the mark, just like Loki always did, when we were lying together. A tear drops from my eyes. The darkness is coming again. I feel like my heart physically cracks, like I have smashed it open before ripping it our. I look around. Nobody here. Ok. I break my promise about using spells. I go over to the bench; green – blue lights appear again. My sword. It has missed me. I haven’t handled it for seven months. Slowly I pick it up and gently run my hand across it’s edge. I see small drops of blood on my finger. A bloody red colour lighting my skin. I look at it. Another tear falls down. I breathe deeply and wipe my tears away. I twist the sword in my grip, getting a firm handle on it before walking out of the cloakrooms.
“Look at her. She wants fight.“ Someone yells at me.
“Kitty with sword.” Another yells, these petty people, they really have no clue they are insulting a god.
“Fury has chosen her.”
“What is her nickname? We already have Black Widow, what’s she going to be?” I stand before the man and smile mischievously. He’s sexy, short black hair and muscular. Perfect type of man for one night, but not for me.
“I don´t know. But what do you say on Black cat? Oh… I don´t ask for your name? Or will you have nothing but a nickname?” I ask.
“Grant Ward.” He replies.
“Ward. I have heard about you. You are so anti-social type and you can perfectly manipulate with people.”
“She perfectly read you.” A man standing nearby comments. I nod my head in acknowledgment.
“Do you want it?” He asks me.
“In bed no, but in the battlefield yes.” I reply.
“Put your sword down.” He says. I look at it.
“Are you afraid that I can hurt you? I’ll be careful, don’t worry. If I hurt you, maybe your girlfriend leaves you.” I put away my sword and smile at him.
“Let´s go.” He gestures for me to begin.
“As you wish.” I say and theatrically bow before him. I see him creeping closer and closer, trying to be stealthy now are we?
“Take her down!” One of Grant’s friend’s yell towards us. I decide to toy with him, let him think he has the upper hand. He ‘take’s me down’ as the man ungracefully put it. What they don’t realize is I haven’t even started yet.
“Like it.” He asks seductively.
“No.” I reply and slam him in his crotch. Not very hard, because I am being gentle right now.  “It doesn’t hurt does it?” I ask mockingly. He attacks me again, but he will be begging for mercy soon. I beat him up like a punching bag. It isn’t long before I see he’s had enough, unfortunately I haven’t. I knock him down take the sword and hold the tip right by his neck.
“Kneel before me” I say proudly. “Who is the winner now?” I ask him.
“Where did you teach martial arts?” He asks me, still half in a state of shock and in pain all over. I smirk mysteriously towards him. I put my sword on my burst and bow before him. I’m not entirely sure which type of ‘martial art’ he’s asking about but I have always been keen on fighting, sparring was another thing Loki and I would do often.
“Have you gone on the olympic games?” Clint asks me, surprised.
“No. I didn´t pass the national rounds” I lie, Clint narrows his eyes a little at this. Who am I to know how good people in -  where is it Slovakia? - at martial arts. If I’m going to pretend to be from there maybe I should do a little national history...
“I didn´t see people who were better than you. Anyway, I need to speak with you.”
“Give me a minute to change clothes then I’ll be with you.” I go to the cloakrooms; put my sword by the neck of an unknown man who was waiting for me.
“Good sharp eyes, agent Black.” The man, with a deep voice states. He looks calm but his eyes are glaring daggers at me.
“Who are you?” I ask him, it seems I’m meeting a whole load of new agents today. “Agent Gerret, I want offer you something.” I put my sword away. “How have you smuggled a sword ?” He asks curiously..
“Everybody has their own paths.” I reply mysteriously. “What do you want?”
“You!” I laugh loudly.
“Me? For what?”
“You are unique. Come to my team. Your partner will be Ward.” I cross my arms over my chest.
“What will you offer me when I become a part of your team?”
“All the things you want and your heart desire.” He replies. He is trying to misguide me, Fury is the boss of this place, if anyone can give me ‘all the things I want’ it is him not this agent. And either way, neither of them, it seems, will be able to get me what I truly want. Loki.
“Thanks. But I don´t betray my team. No deal.” I reply him proudly, he scowls at my answer, probably expecting me to agree wholeheartedly. “Can you leave me please? I want take a shower.” I stand and watch him walk away, I’m sure he hasn’t actually left but I begin to undress for a shower anyway.